Resoulve

Last night I went from stressed out and terrified to resolved. I was planning on drinking the prep and keep it down. It's funny how I went back an forth between the two feelings. From being terrified to confident in the matter of minutes. The resolve stuck for today. I had my liquids all set for the day but did not drink nearly as much as I thought I would. (and for those of you on a liquid diet Apple juice has way more calories then Poweraid, I wish I had realized that sooner)

I stopped drinking (food) around noon as I went to my general practitioners office. I needed my blood work done for the year (it had actually been 1.5 years).

I won't discuss what happened when I got home, it's just too traumatizing and disgusting. It was not a good night.